very average joe

lovely lovely weekend, until you have that moment when you look in the mirror and think wow you could just try a little bit harder couldnt you?
thats how im feeling.
Im confused about all my emotions at the moment. i could really do with a talk from that really close friend who seems perfect in every aspect yet im positive they cant feel the same way..

there is so many pretty girls, id kill to have that figure, that hair, that style, that bubbly personality where everything just passes over my head.
im starting to think that that dream is drifting further and further away, not that i thought id ever get there anyway.
They say your teen years are when you start to find yourself more, settle down to one person more or less
am i just going to be one of those people that starts really really late with all of that?

Im probably just sounding like a complete depressing low life who has no self esteem at all. I'd say i usually do, but at the moment no i do not.
I always give advice to others problems and let my problems be forgotten until you get that spare moment and they all come back and you cant find it as easy to listen to your own advice.
When i say 'problems' no they're not massive problems that will ever never go away. But they can still upset me, fight with my feelings and make me upset over nothing. Im sure most girls would agree with this.

Lets hope this ridiculously stupid mood soon passes

A little indecisive?

As I haven't posted in a while i thought it was about time to get EVERYTHING out of my system...
Maybe this will help?

First note: I've got so many big ideas at the momentoo! I'm not sure whether these are good points or bad points
I fancy changing my bedroom around a little bit? I want it to be a bit more personal, and cosy. I've decided to collect together loads of different photo frames and pop some quirky prints in it, photos, bits and bobs! sounds like a bit of a plan i think?!

Another change: I'm sick of clothing changing so quickly, such a big list of things i would like to purchase possibly soon if possible?! 
1. new skinny jeans (a very big must at the moment)
2.cosy joggers
3. couple of lounging tees
4. worker boots!
5. A new BAG ( so so so so desperately)
6. biggggggggggg knitted jumper

Okay, that's a big enough list but i could go on and on and oonnnn.


another note: I cant seem to get over you..
we'll leave it at that shall we?

OH, and after a lovely trip into Newcastle in Hollisters I'm officially jealous of every tall blonde skinny girl in that shop!

LOVE XX

"just get to the point.."

Truth is, I'm not to sure where I'm actually going with this?
I have so so so many thoughts that run through my head, i thought writing this blog would be as easy as writing a diary?
For me, I really don't think it is?! I plan, or at least try to write here everyday, and everything that i have been thinking about throughout the day flies out of my head as soon as my wriggling fingers touch the key board.
Most likely that not many people read this thing, its more of a little keepsake for me to blab on to.
I've been ever so careful not to ever write anything specifically aimed at anyone, i don't want to be made out to be a 'bully'.
I guess this blog title is quite a lovely little quote 'the futures brighter when hearts are lighter'
It makes so much sense to me! writing on here lets my thought (well, those that I remember when writing this) flow out and make much more sense when I re-read them!
anyway, yeah, I don't know where I'm going with this?

LOVE XX

Give me a break!? PLEASE!

Wow. have I been asleep for the past two weeks or something?!
where the hell did all this homework and course work come from?!
Its a JOKE. Art coursework seemed a bit of a doddle until three hours into school when I was told that Johnson expected five, yes five, pages of work done by Wednesday! yeah, good luck with that one!
French: pahh! you expect me  to write three minutes worth of writing about 'my life' for tomorrow. That should be fun! I could practically  talk for England and the pressure of actually having to think of anything to write about my life is stupid! The 'speaking in French' part sounds interesting enough for me...


The only thing keeping me going at this moment in time is BIRTHDAY BASH tomorrow night!
Niiceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

LOVE XX

These days are moving fast ahead...

One and a half years and I've finished school. Oh my how it has gone fast!

It doesnt seem like two minuites ago that i was back in year seven!

However saying that, im glad to not be back in year seven. Youngest, clueless and smallest. Walking down the corridors i think, 'surely i wasnt that small...' Either they are getting smaller and smaller each year or I've grown way way way more than i thought i had!

Well how time flies when your having fun... *cough cough*

LOVE! xx